…That not every day is a page for a self help book?
Some days are meant to be the pothole to climb out of.
That doesn’t mean that a day like today needs to have been a bad one. Twist logic or look to the benefits of challenge and you will find a way to realize that the days where struggle is a friend (I’m not always happy with my friends, are you?)… These are usually the days that we remember as turning points or lessons learned.
Some days I like school. Some days not so much.
Today I wasn’t so sure I wanted to learn a lesson. My best laid plan saw my day being an easy one. It is a signal when I start to feel sorry for myself or start to plot the way I think things should go… or how I can escape.. that I am back in self-will or having a pity party because I am NOT doing what I have committed to in the very nature of a surrender.
Here is the scenario: Today I heard something that wasn’t what I necessarily would have liked to have heard. I should preface this by saying it was by no means bad news. Not by a longshot. In fact, it was good news. So what’s the problem? I was not honoring my surrender…. pretty simple. The lesson for me is when I surrender the result of my day… each day… that means all results…. not just the ones that I don’t mind surrendering. That means if something is there that I might prefer (or think I prefer) over something else I accept and know that it is the result on my path. If one result isn’t there another one is awaiting, today, tomorrow or down the road.
A side effect of being in self-will and believing that a result (or anything) is not what I “want” is the mind telling me that there is something wrong that would have provided that result. I worry that I have failed in some way and that suddenly there is a negative to deal with. That is a perception that is completely created and random. It is unnecessary and harmful only to me. My path is to be different. My path is to provide another result that will give me a different experience than one that I have assumed to be the one I want.
Today provided a pivotal test in the art of surrender. I did not fail, because there is no complete success.. only experience through practice. I regressed for a while (all the time slowly becoming aware that this was happening) and then remembered that I had made the commitment to accept the decisions and results that were offered. To know and to continue to learn is the part of the surrender that I will chalk up as the success today. I knew I was in a surrender, I knew I was pulling back my own will and I arrested the behavior and jumped back to the reality of what my surrender is about.
Life isn’t always going to be a picnic (or the perception of a desired result.) Life isn’t always even going to be fun in the moment. Life should be educational and a constant growth process… and sometimes that can actually be the fun. I am proud of what has happened today.
Be Happy. Be Well. Be.