…That I’m in a swirling vortex of change?
The current chapter is getting interesting…….
I speak of my life as book. Personally I think everyone’s life is some sort of tome. We live in phases and periods. We grow and we change… we have adventures and live through joy and pain, the world around us morphing in grand or sometimes very ambiguous ways. Life can move quickly.. or seem not to move at all… but it is always distinct in its similarities to a book. There is a beginning, a “middle” and always an end. Sometimes the story is magnificent and exciting, others simple and repetitive. There are love stories and there are Dickensian dramas. Most of the books, like the lives, will hold many different phases, or chapters that mark the many ways we develop. Sometimes books will end abruptly… seemingly without a fair or understandable conclusion… but the story (and the book) must end.
Unless of course you are a vampire.
My book has been filled with chapters. I am a master of re-invention and each incarnation has brought about a different state of mind or environment. Like a staircase I would seem to be on a path, the core being or “soul” being the center of the story… but the character dons different costumes and personalities on the path up to the top, or finish of the book. It is always an upward movement, with occasional steps down the staircase sometimes intentional, others because that is what life will do.
Some chapters can transition or overlap each other depending on the master focus. My current chapter could have started in part when I moved into my current home in West Hollywood over 15 years ago. I would say it shifted completely when I began working for SONY 12-1/2 years ago. What has happened in this, one of my longer chapters has come in sections… some of them documenting amazing and rewarding opportunity and growth…. others feeling like stagnant and uneventful periods (which in hindsight one should always be grateful for… the lack of drama is a fortunate thing!)
Around me today is the air of difference. In less than a month’s time I will be moving to a new environment within my work world. I am feeling personal changes and growth within me as well. There is every reason to believe that a chapter is coming towards its end… or, at the very least, a transition or “section” is in effect. All around me I am vitally aware that absolutely nothing in my world is “business as usual”. I am shifting how I do things and, how I think. I am exhilarated by this swirling vortex…. I love the idea that things are going to be different. I am an optimist. I don’t tend to look at change as anything but a positive. My experience in the book I am living has been one of major and significant growth with every change I have opened my mind to in all aspects of my life. Where I have struggled or held back I have faltered… but only as long as it took to realize that fear holds me back and does not play to my advantage.
Where do I go from here? I have learned to allow the swirling take me. Every evidence proves that too much of my own hand in the process of change is not necessarily the best way to write the book. I have dreams and it is ALWAYS suggestible to take steps and work hard while focusing on things that you want to happen… but I know that more opportunity in all parts of my world have been afforded by playing along and going for the ride until there is a point that is recognizable as the destination. Once there… continue to keep that mind WIDE open and remember: the ride does not stop until you stop it.
I enjoy a good ride.
In the weeks ahead I will be talking about the chapter that I am living in and how it is either wrapping or moving into a new section or direction. It is all about the way I think and how I react to absolutely everything I see, hear, say, breathe and … write.
I am convinced that I am walking swiftly up the staircase at this time. I feel positive and I am experiencing the happiness that I am always chasing. Have I caught it? I’m not sure that is every going to completely be the case. Personally I am motivated by the chase…. as long as the chase is not one of desperation and UNhappiness.
But I will say the book continues to be very interesting. At least to me.
Be Happy. Be Well. Be.