…That I am on the cusp of a transition?
Life is filled with transition.
I am currently in a job “shift”. Not a new job… not a promotion… not a new boss… but definitely a new environment and way of life. A restructure of the way we are and the way the business decisions and day-to-day routines will be handled… both by me and by the group at large.
One way of life ended on Thursday and the other begins on Monday… thus my cusp. This weekend I am in between what I have known and what will be. It is illuminating, curious and somewhat exciting to not completely know how the world around me will be run. It is as though I am starting a new. It is as though there were a giant blackboard wiped clean and with it an opportunity to create an entirely new opportunity upon it.
I live for this stuff.
I am forever talking about change. I am always looking for it. I know that each day represents change in the smallest and most obvious ways… but we humans become embroiled in routine and habit and anything that disrupts (whether positively or negatively) is what I tend to focus on as a study in my own life reactions.
Change, and transition are not scary to me. As I have explained in the past I will feel apprehension if the change is an unknown, where I must guess or patiently await an outcome that will effect me. But the change itself is a challenge. I am adaptable. I am malleable. I will seize the opportunity to grow and learn, to shift and stretch. There is no change that I cannot benefit from if I am approaching it with the right attitude.
This, perhaps, is why I am slightly anxious when the change is not illustrated… at least in part. To know that there is something coming without knowing what is to give an over-active imagination the time to create a scenario that may set the nerves on edge. But even the end result of something feared is often not something that will come to fruition anywhere near the way I have imagined. You would think that a couple of examples of this during the course of a lifetime would give me the proof necessary that faith and trust in the path is all up to my reactions and responses to the very things I fear.
I have been aware of my current transition for months. There was a period that I did not know what it meant. There has been a very long period that much may have been slightly spelled out… but parts could not be realized because of proximity and the mere fact that certain things must occur in order for others to do so. In the coming week we will come out on the other side of the physical part of the transition. Mentally we have all been preparing and now the real life proof of concept is going to be in front of us.
I, for one, welcome the next piece of the puzzle being added. I am relieved to finally be where it is that I am next supposed to be.
But in the meantime I will live in this odd cusp between the past and the future. It is an opportunity like no other to live very much in the moment.
Be Happy. Be Well. Be.