…That I must take deep breaths?
They say fear is the absence of faith.
On some days I just don’t think about faith. That doesn’t always mean that I am in fear, however. I have learned quite successfully through the years that my fears are often (if not always) unfounded. I have written proof that the world which seems to be shifting in front of me from time to time can often simply be a reaction to not knowing what the future really holds, and my failing to remember that I am not in the moment and instead projecting myself to whatever assumed time I am in fear of…
How many times have I told myself that everything happens for a reason? How many times have I wondered just what that reason might be? It certainly does take the power away from the perception of whatever paradigm shift the mind will conjure when certain life twists and turns are presented. The problem with this fear buffer is in the fact that it is always much easier to ponder when it is not about the fears and changes you are potentially experiencing yourself.
It is true for me that a lot of the dramatizations are just that. They are the cliffhanger effect (what will happen?) 0r my day-to-day maze runs (a sense of confusion while seeking direction,) over-exaggerated power struggles and stonewalls, all to help spice up what any normal human would hope to be a smooth sail through and successful journey towards a pleasant sleep at the end of a good day.
Some days are about the fear. Adrenalin rushes that put a creative mind into storytelling mode. What if…. I will say to myself. What if this actually HAPPENS?
Good question.
How do I know that the things I fear are not something that I will end up either liking or even finding benefit from? And how do I know that anything I fear is going to happen at all? Up until this point on my path I have not yet been afforded a crystal ball. I do, however, have a very powerful sense of intuition… and it has been telling me that things are going to be a lot different than the messages I have been starting to get of late.
Like a game show, however… there may be some bluffing going on. There could be some pieces that are not quite built in truth. But things are out there and the future is morphing slightly in front of me. Funny thing about the morphing…. it can morph back to an original shape or continue further into another one altogether. What I am feeling today is uncertainty… which is a byproduct of seeing the world out of order…. and not being sure what the outcome will mean.
Fear.
But if I am to continue to learn and grow in this life I must always keep an open mind. EVEN when the information in front of me is less than appealing or when my intuition rages that the truth is not being told. Fear is false evidence appearing real. I am coming to conclusions that are not necessarily the truth. Even if they were, the fear is the suggestion that they would actually happen. I do not know that to be a fact.
Coupled with faith comes trust. Based on the experiences of my current piece of the path I would only have to conclude that I am being shown that something is going to change further than I thought it might in the first place. But if change is constant and what I thought to be one thing is going to probably end up being another… what is to stop my own personal morphing? One thing could be a domino effect to another. If what I see is even remotely a reality for the future… it does not have to be mine. I have choices. Many of them. So what, then, do I really fear? Do I fear the path that I see…. or perhaps the one that I do not see? Am I afraid of what might happen where I am or of taking the chance to change much more than I had thought to be possible as a result?
Is 2010 about making one of the biggest changes I have made in years? Was today the beginning of an end… or the beginning of a brand new start?
Fear can be motivating. The key is not to react to it. I dealt with it today by writing. In the end that seems to have worked.
… as for tomorrow? I may have to do the exercise all over again. Being human and uncertain can be very trying. If that is what it takes… that is what I will do.
Be Happy. Be Well. Be.