…That I sometimes wonder…
The world can be a confusing place.
Throughout the years I have learned that some of the most puzzling situations, moments and periods in my life have been the most amazing learning experiences… and that once I am on the other side and I can see them for what they are… added value, growth, maturity and a deeper, more rewarding level of living.
What can be troubling to varying degrees while learning, however, is the odd rules, the strange and baffling text books, the eccentric and sometimes ethics challenged teachers and the many, many idiosyncrasies that can leave a student frustrated and scratching their head wondering what the hell the lesson is supposed to mean.
I have known for years that the journey is part (or sometimes the entirety) of the lesson. To take any situation that doesn’t feel comfortable and walk away means only that the lesson has not been completed. If I do not experience the entire ‘course’ I am destined to find myself in the same (or similar) classroom at some point a little further down my path in order to finish it.
But some days are troubling. As a raw emotional being I can only question what it is that I am doing which would have resulted with the lesson in the first place. Some days I wonder why I am taking the class at all. Do I need it? Is it an elective course or is this required to gain credit for the eventual graduation? Unfortunately I have discovered part of the lesson is the questions that I ask about the lesson…
But even difficult classes have their promising moments. Every now and again there is a shining moment where a breakthrough may be made. Sometimes I feel that I am on top of the world whether or not this is the point where the class and the lesson are completed and the next level of life lesson begins. All of the lessons I have experienced thus far have been vital and as such I am grateful in hindsight to have had the opportunity to have been there to learn them. Without them I would not be to the level of life education that I have reached. I look forward vigorously to the lessons I have yet to learn… (but not always to the classroom experience provided to learn them.)
Today I am reflective. I don’t mind all the learning but wouldn’t it be nice to take a break from it all? Does anyone really know how hard it is for an intense Pisces to truly turn off his head? Not an easy task.
Fortunately I have London. Days away. And this is one of the primary reasons I keep going back to the class in the first place.
Be Happy. Be Well. Be.