…That I am strangely calm?
Experience might dictate that there is a storm brewing… but that is not what I believe is happening.
When I returned from my last trip to London I made the decision to change how I was balancing (or perhaps NOT balancing) my personal life. The work world is all encompassing… that has not changed… but the balance was off in my personal world. I wasn’t giving myself enough of what I needed to quantify the reason I am here on this planet. Sometimes I believe I forget that is important…. and I just let the days pass by.
It dawned on me that I not only needed to balance work with personal … but I needed to balance my personal as well. I know that sounds confusing… but the fact is that one can be balanced if they leave the workplace and just go home and hibernate… but for me that is not (nor never was) the complete picture. I need to make sure that I am out and involved with the world in order to maintain the identity that is proper and real for the path that I choose as well as the path that I do not.
For those who have no idea about what I am speaking about… I refer to how we can pigeon-hole ourselves into believing that there is an identity in who we are based only on what we do for a living. For me… there is so much more. I like to use my left and right brain. I like to create as well as keep order. I like to listen as well as to speak. I am adamant that the world is easier and better when I give of myself and return what has been afforded me. There is a whole philosophy that I have learned and in some periods of my life, forgotten.
But in the turmoil of my own dissatisfaction with what I saw myself becoming in 2009… I made the commitment to make sure that changed.
Change takes time and often there is very little to see in result. In this day and age it is not unusual for a soul to want to see something instantly… or they may decide without the proper evidence that the process is not working. Although I have only been on this part of my path for a couple of months I am willing to believe that the calm I am feeling is a direct result of the changes I have committed to.
I shall remind myself of this when the next pothole appears.
Be Happy. Be Well. Be.
February 26th, 2010 at 12:55 pm
Good stuff cousin!!