…That I am taller than I’ve ever been?
Although my physical height may have hit a peak, my spiritual heights have not yet been reached… and continue to grow steadily day by day.
As another year ends and a new one takes a shape I am filled with gratitude for the relationships I have cultivated and maintained in a year where I feel I have grown closer to the most important relationship I have ever needed.
All relationships require patience and cultivation. Over the years I have struggled with the relationship with a power greater than myself. For years I did not want to identify myself anywhere near what I was taught regarding “God” and the religion that he was portrayed in while I grew up. For years after that I struggled to put what I did not identify with behind me while struggling with transitional needs for belief in something that would work well to distinguish myself from the isolation of trying to be the higher power in all areas of my life on my own.
What has transpired is a chance to grow and learn through bouts of stubborn behavior, sadness, mistakes and revelations. A relationship with God, whatever your understanding, is one that requires the basic foundation of trust. Without the trust there is nothing there to build. This was something I had to learn with the relationships I cultivated on the planet. The humans who would be my friends and my lovers., my family and the people I work with all held a key to understanding the basics of how relationships must work…. and providing me the window to a better means to creating my ultimate relationship.
It is that relationship, in turn, that provides me the chance to move back to all others and flourish further and better within them.
The wall that I have had to climb over the years has been the one regarding trust. I may scale this for years to come. It is possible that I will never fully climb over it and reach the other side. It is also likely that I may find myself falling down from time to time and having to scale through territory that I have already been in before.
So be it.
The challenge is what keeps me vital. I have surrendered my fear and given my will and my life to a God that I trust (because if the trust is not there the surrender is not whole). I believe that the result, no matter what it may be or when it may happen is the one that I am meant to have because of this trust. I have accepted that the relationships in my life are as they should be because I am in a trusting relationship with God and I am finding that each one of these relationships is better than they have ever been.
I am taller. I am happier. I am wide-eyed and optimistic.
For today this is where I am choosing to stay.
Be Well. Be Happy. Be.