I have an active imagination. What I don’t always have is control over where that imagination is going… or the places it can take me. What’s ironic is that as a normal alcoholic born and active in the world of “isms”… I am in default mode when trying to seize control of the world around [...]
Is your prayer a negotiation? Recently it dawned on me that I have a tendency to ask for signs. That, I would expect, is somewhat normal in prayer. Part of my experience is in looking for answers and in the constant lesson about surrender and trust. The plain truth for me is that sometimes I [...]
Although my physical height may have hit a peak, my spiritual heights have not yet been reached… and continue to grow steadily day by day. As another year ends and a new one takes a shape I am filled with gratitude for the relationships I have cultivated and maintained in a year where I feel [...]
It is so easy to create a problem. I love solutions, peace and a happy existence as much as the next person… perhaps even a little bit more. But it is obvious to me that no matter what I have done to improve the way that I live and think, I am usually, in some [...]
It is best if I always stop, breathe and think before I respond. Not that I have been over-reacting to anything these days… I have become much better at the calm and dignified response over the past several years… but it is important to remember that I, like most humans, have triggers. In alcoholics anonymous [...]
Do you have a higher power? What do you call it, him or her? For years, possibly my entire life, I have been conflicted about God. What is it? Is it a he? A she? Does the God I was taught of as a child exist (and does that mean I AM going to hell?) [...]
And this time I mean business. I haven’t been in my blog for a while and although I don’t have any regrets in my life… I do feel I should be sharing the freedom of expression and ever-present reminders I offer myself by putting whatever is on my mind out there. It isn’t for lack [...]
Trust may be the most difficult battle I will ever conquer in my lifetime…but I will take it down. During the course of my life I have learned that many people and situations were not trustworthy. I have felt abandoned, lied to and taken advantage of. It has not broken me… and in most (if [...]
Sometimes it is as simple as that. I have been working on a concentrated effort to be in my moments as they are happening. I have had a habit for much of my life to always desire something else, somewhere better or simply the end of the place that I perceive that I am in. [...]
Recognition and validation can be a beautiful sedative. Sedative may be an interesting choice of words for an alcoholic soul who has, very fortunately, spent the last 7000 days without the use of alcohol or drugs to plug up the holes, chase away the demons, quiet the voices or stifle the isolation and loneliness. It [...]